things taking up space in my heart this monday:
today was my first day as a little full-time worker bee. i was oddly nervous driving to the same place i’ve been going every morning for the past six months. it felt like my first day at a new job - my heart getting all nervous and anxious. but it was just a normal day with two more hours added to the beginning. i’m hoping very soon i will surprise everyone by being even more awesome than they expected and take some more baby steps in the direction i want to go.
my old landlord left me the sweetest message. i nearly cried at my desk. he told me he was sad to see me go, that he loved having me, and that i did such a great job cleaning up the place. it was nice to talk to him one last time. i will miss him. and that little old house so very much.
my birthday is a month from today. i can hardly believe i’ll be 25 this time next month. sometimes i look at my life and wonder where all the time has gone when i barely have anything to show for it. but then there are times where i feel like i’ve crammed an awful lot of experiences and education into these years.
timing is something that’s been weighing on this heart of mine, too. a year ago, i never would have signed the lease to that little old house if i would have heard the term “restructuring” a week earlier. and this year, if i would have been moved into a full-time position a month earlier, i could have stayed. it’s funny how life happens that way - the length of a day or a week or a month can make all the difference in the world. i don’t know how things would have gone if i would have waited or if things would have sped up, but looking from here, right now in this moment, the way things have shaken out don’t seem half bad.